Այս թեմայում կտեղադրեմ իմ այն «ստեղծագործությունները», որոնք անհասկանալի են… երբեմն նույնիսկ հենց ինձ:
Շարքն անվանել եմ «Deliriums»:
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“Don’t be afraid! I’ll let your Spirit die!..”
I was crawling slowly towards that powerful Voice coming from the distant depths of the Emptiness around.
“Come to Me, my sweet Dirty Thing! Come… and enjoy the Pain of Death!..”
My bruised Sanity persuaded me to turn back, but it was no use. Something much greater pulled me further and further in the way of that distant voice growling in Darkness.
“I’ll save your Soul from Light! Trust Me!..”
Where were I going? I didn’t know that. My thoughts… Did I have them? - I guess no. I felt a pressing Emptiness inside that round-shaped box called Head.
“Come and get all the Filth I have within! Don’t abuse your Lust!..”
I heard a chaotic noise. It was very loud and strong. Frightened screams… sighs of thousands of people, like they’re doing sex at the same time… voices of mourning women… All these sounds… were rolling in my Head… together… rolling… a nervous baby-cry… rolling… rolling… and a hysteric laughter…
“Your Conscience is dumb. So just follow your Desire!..”
The powerful Voice called me to the dark depths of that indefinite Space. And I couldn’t resist. It was not right; but it felt so right to do wrong things!..
“Enter the Realm of Mine! The Realm of Darkness, Chaos and Death!..”
Darkness. Freezing bitter Thoughts. Taste of rusty Metal. Nasty smell of Blood. And Fever…
“I’ll kiss all your Tears away! I’ll be forever by your side! I will never leave you!..”
I shivered awfully. The cold sweat has covered my whole naked Body. But my forehead was burning. And that unbearable headache…
“Come closer to Me! You need Me inside of yourself!..”
My nails were scratching the Soil and sharp Stones. And I was crawling ahead. Nothing was seen in that pitch-dark. But it seemed like I saw the twinkling Blood flowing over my scratched and wounded Body to the Ground.
“Trust Me, My Poor Creature! I’ll wash your Sanity in the Ocean of Sins!..”
I saw a crimson line in the Horizon. At first it was very thin, then it became thicker and thicker, then again it became thin and started to move slowly up and down around the ax. It was coming near and going far; and the Insignificance of Darkness surrounded me by Doom.
“Open your Heart and let Me in! Confess that you want Me!..”
Yeah, I was in that indefinite Insignificance and was perfectly suiting with it. My Heart was torn to small bleeding pieces. My Soul was stinking like a spoilt egg. My Flesh was bruised to black.
“Let Me inhabit inside of you! Let Me surround you by Fears!..”
I was yelling silently for help. But nothing could help me ... as I was dead.
And the Joy was coldly shining deep within my Rotten Self…
“You’re a part of Me and I am a part of yours!..”
Sure, we are…
© C.S.
(Black Snakey CactuSoul)
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